My first Blog:Monday August 15th, 2011

Hmm Now that i have this i don't know what to write. I'm in Newark for the next 11months. I'm learning my way around Newark. Some parts are dangerous; like the neighborhood I live in is kind of unsafe. I cant go out at night. My first couple of nights here i heard gunshots but tried to convince myself it was just firecrackers. From one hood to the next.ughhh. well my attention deficit disorder is not getting any better; in fact its getting worse and i'm going trying to figure out what's up with my head. I haven't ever had a clear moment in my 24 years. I still find it amazing that I can function and do daily day to day tasks without throwing in the towel. I've thought about just giving up so many times but I find that I won't be happy if i just give up on life ya know. My belief is that God has a plan for me or at least that's what I believe. I had a friend and my sister spend this weekend with me. It was good but I found myself upstairs in my bed for most of the day yesterday. I don't understand why I'm always so moody and tired all of the time. I get overwhelmed way too easily, and I almost scared of anything and everything. Writing helps but I'm always scared that someone will judge me and be offended by what I write. For the next 11 months I want to write, document my life with my 3 new housemates and my life here in Newark and hopefully beyond.